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  “Do it since you're so bad.” She mumbled while blood dripped nonstop from her mouth.

  “SHOOT ME MUTHAFUCKER! -----Do it!” She yelled. I just starred at her in pure disgust.

  My thoughts were pushed to the back of my mind when my niece started crying. I had completely forgot that Maya was still in the room. “You're not even worth it.”

  I left her sitting in the spot where I’d knocked her the fuck out. Packing some clothes in Mya's bag, I scooped her up and made my way to the car. It's too dangerous for her to stay with me but at this moment I didn't want her nowhere near that bitch.

  CHAPTER 3 (Kiara)

  “Lady are you going in or what? You're blocking the damn door.” A voice rang through my ears causing me to spin around. It was a girl who didn't look over the age of seventeen. I saw a somewhat pudge in her stomach so I'm guessing that she came to do the exact same thing as me. Standing outside of the clinic, I just couldn't build up the courage to step foot inside of a place that was going to take the life of something so innocent growing daily within me.

  “I'm sorry.” I apologized while stepping to the side letting her pass by.

  “It's okay. I didn't mean to be rude. I just really want to get this over with.” She gave me a coy smile, prior to proceeding inside. I realized that because she was young, her parents were most likely making her abort her baby. She didn't have a choice; but I did. I could either get rid of the baby and move on with my life or I could walk away without even looking back. I glanced down at the money in my hands that Gino had given me and then back at the clinic. Deciding that I had made the right choice, I hurriedly made my way back to my car. I just couldn't go through with it. Before heading home I realized that I had to get something else off of my chest. Bernard Park was calling my name.

  I haven't visited Bernard Park ever since I was a little girl; it brought back so many memories. All I knew was that even the droplets of rain couldn't stop me this time. I headed towards the lake and just stood there taking in the atmosphere and the scenery as well. It was beautiful. The rain soon mixed with my tears as they both cascaded down my face. With one hand on my belly, I used the other to snatch off the meaningless necklace that hung from my neck. Gino gave it to me the night he told me he loved me and I should have known that he was lying. How could I have been so dumb? I let the necklace slip through my fingers and into the water. “I don't need him. I never did and I never will.” I restated over and over again.

  I just liked the thought of actually loving someone and having them love me back but look where that got me. No damn where! If Gino’s the best for me then I obviously didn’t look hard enough. There’s some one for every one and I pray that soon I will find my knight in shining armor.

  Chapter 4 (Kiara)

  I have been craving a double stack with extra cheese, mayonnaise, and onions; two large fries, and a large vanilla frosty from Wendy’s all day. Actually I’m so hungry that I could eat a horse. The drive-thru is packed and the line is damn near all the way around the corner. I would have waited if I knew that it was just as packed on the inside as it was on the outside. Clearly I failed to see the charter bus parked outside. It was filled with people who I'm guessing had come from out of town on some sort of trip. I silently sighed to myself, taking my place at the very end of the line.

  “I might as well occupy myself while I wait.” I mumbled while retrieving my I-pod from my purse and placing the buds into my ears. Blasting Dominic Brown’s “”, one of my favorite songs, I hadn’t noticed that I’d dropped something. A tap on my shoulder caused me to slightly jump and turn around to see who the prosecutor was. I removed one bud from my ear to hear what she had to say.

  “Excuse me---you dropped this.” She stated pleasantly with a smile showing off her deep dimples. I’d dropped some of the money that “you know who” gave me. It must have fell out when I took my I-pod out of my purse.

  “Thank you so much.” I said taking the money from her.

  “You're welcome---and might I add that those shoes are bad girl.”

  “Thanks.” I thanked her for the compliment.

  “Where’d you get them? “She questioned.

  Before I could respond a very familiar face approached the two of us interrupting our conversation.

  The mystery guy blurts out. “Baby let’s just go. I got to be somewhere in half an hour and----.”

  “JORDAN?” I can't believe that my past is coming back to bite me in the ass. Leaving him was the hardest thing I ever had to do but I never thought that I would see him again.

  FLASHBACK

  “Don't you remember? You were running around the house butt naked covered from head to toe in flour pretending that you were a bird.” My mother had somehow managed to gather every one into a circle so that she could tell countless stories about the dumb things I did when I was a child. I'd only stepped foot out of the room for a moment to take the trash out but once I returned everyone just looked at me and then they all began to laugh. How in the hell did she end up centering the conversation topic on me? This is my sister Synovia's baby shower; not mine. I guess since synovia’s her favorite she wouldn't dare to embarrass her in front of all of our family and friends. I huffed slightly prior to heading into my mom’s direction.

  “Okay. It looks like someone had enough to drink.” I said to my mom.

  “Enough to drink?” She questioned me. “I'm just getting started.” She yelled into my ear causing me to wince in pain. She also tried to finish drinking the remainder of whatever was left in her cup but I took it away from her. “Go into the kitchen and make yourself a cup of coffee.” I declared.

  “You're no fun." My mother stumbled in the wrong direction so I had to follow her ass just to make sure she did what I asked. When I returned I saw Jordan standing slightly between Synovia’s legs whispering something into her ear that had her giggling.

  “What's so funny?” I must have startled them because the both of them jumped.

  “You scared me Ki-Ki.” She stated while rubbing her protruding belly.

  At this point I had a scowl on my face. “I said what's so funny? I'd like to laugh too.” She looked at Jordan as if he was the one that was supposed to come up with the lie to tell me.

  “Nothing baby. It was just a little inside joke. You probably wouldn't understand.” He simply shrugged. I was interrupted when they announced that it was time for Synovia to open her gifts. She sauntered away leaving Jordan and I alone.

  “You wrapped the gift like I told you right?” I asked him.

  “Of course.” He stated before sipping his drink.

  “Good boy.”

  I gave him a peck on the lips and he tried to slip some tongue into my mouth. “You can't be doing that in front of the parental units Jordan.”

  He looked around and then back at me. “Man they ain't even fucking looking.” He tried again but I moved my face so he only caught my cheek. “What you doing?” He acquired while pulling me closer.

  “I said no babe; trust me-----I'm going to reward you later. Don't worry.” I winked at him.

  “You better.” Jordan pulled me back towards him once I tried to walk away. I couldn't help it. I gave in. I ended up giving him a little tongue action. Right under the mistletoe.

  “Did you think about what we were talking about last night?” He asked once we pulled away from the kiss.

  “Yes.”

  “So what do you think?” He asked with a raised brow.

  “I think that----that----.” He cut me off with a confused look upon his face.

  “That what?” He was becoming impatient waiting on my response.

  “That I'd absolutely, positively love to be Mrs. Houston.” As soon as I said that I saw a big ass Kool-Aid smile appear on his face.

  “We need you over here Ki-Ki.” Princess yelled.

  “We'll talk more about it later.”

  One last kiss is what I gave him before I disappeared into the crowd. Synovia opened all of
her gifts and every one congratulated her and Malcolm; her so called baby daddy. When the clock struck 12:00 a.m. it was officially Christmas; and officially the 5th Christmas that I'd shared with Jordan.

  ***

  “Dammit Imani.” My little cousin just spit up on my brand new white silk blouse. I had no choice but to go clean it off; or at least attempt to. The bathroom upstairs needed to be repaired so the one down the hall from the kitchen is the one I had to use. Even though the music was loud I still heard voices in the kitchen having a very passionate whisper fight. I guess who ever they were, they really didn't want anyone to hear what they were discussing. I could see the shadows using a lot of hand movements to illustrate the fact that they were serious about what they were saying. I immediately tuned in once I heard the name Jordan.

  “You need to fucking tell her the truth Jordan. She deserves to know.” I heard my sister’s voice.

  “No you need to chill the fuck out. You have a man. Why the fuck are you trying to pin that damn baby on me?” Jordan questioned her.

  “I'm not trying to do shit. All I'm saying is that you and I both know that there is a possibility that the baby might be yours.” Synovia said in a harsh tone

  “Yeah but we also know that it might not be.” He said.

  By now my hand was squeezing the life out of the door knob. It was itching to beat the fuck out of one of them. How could they do this to me? I pushed the door all the way open letting my presence be known to the both of them. We all just stood there in complete silence starring at each other.

  “What's going on?” I heard Malcolm say over my shoulder but my mouth didn't bother to utter a single word. I just shook my head and walked away.

  “Baby wait.” Jordan yelled-----.

  Present Day

  I was so stupid. The same night that I found out that he'd slept with my sister I was completely heart broken. How could someone that you love so much do something so cruel? I know this all sounds crazy given the situation that I am in but this is how I felt at the time. All I could think about was how they both betrayed me. I obviously wasn't doing something right if he had to fuck my sister. I didn't know exactly how many times they'd slept together but all I knew was that I wanted and needed him in my life. I couldn't just leave like that.

  I moved out for a while so that we could have some space from each other. We were back together but the relationship wasn't the same. I decided to take him back after he begged and apologized so much but until synovia’s baby was born, I couldn't be with him the way that I wanted to. Two whole months later we found out that the baby was in fact his.

  I just hated the way that he looked at his daughter and the way that he and synovia acted towards each other as if they'd done nothing wrong. That was supposed to be mine. We were going to get married, settle down, and have children. But instead he was forever connected to my sister. No matter what he was always going to have to be in her life because of the fact that they had a child together. Speaking of getting married, Jordan and I were together for another year before we finally set a date. I had everything I ever wanted; but why did I feel so empty? Why did I feel as if things weren't going as planned? I just couldn't go through with it at all. I ended up leaving him at the altar and never looking back. Once I packed my bags I prayed and hoped that I would never see him again.

  I even changed my number so that he couldn't reach me. I just felt out of place and I knew that he still wasn't being faithful. Several females kept calling my phone telling me how they had my man and how he was going to leave me for them. They’d even say how he ate them out with the same lips that he kisses me with. Some just came right out and said how he fucks them every day when I think he's really out working. I questioned him and he said that they were just hating on the "bond" that we had and how they wanted to be in my shoes but I didn't believe him. I even think that Princess slept with him because every time they were around each other, it was always some sort of weird tension floating around in the air. Before you say anything, I didn't sleep with Gino to get back at her. I just fell for the wrong man at the wrong time. But anyways; Jordan is a thing from the past. A past that I never wanted to dig up but now here he is in the flesh.

  I couldn't even stand being in the same facility as him. The thought alone made my skin crawl a tad bit. A man that I haven't seen in a numerous amount of years has now come back to basically haunt me. I had to do it. I had to leave.

  “Excuse me.” I excused myself as I attempted to walk around Jordan and the girl he called baby who I'm guessing is his girlfriend.

  “Ki-Ki.” He called my name but I sped up my walk. I didn't expect for him to follow me to my car. I tried to pull my keys out as fast as I could but he grabbed my arm and spun me around. “We need to talk Kiara.” Jordan put his arms on both sides of me blocking me so that I wasn't able to move. I could see his girlfriend glaring at the two of us with her arms folded from the window inside Wendy's.

  “Get the fuck off of me. We have nothing to discuss.”

  “Oh so it's like that now?” He questioned with a distorted face.

  “It's been that way. Maybe if you knew how to keep your dick in your pants we would still be together.” I said spitefully hoping he’d get the point.

  “I'm----.”

  “You what? I hope you're not going to say that you're sorry because quite frankly I'm tired of hearing all the excuses and apologies that your sorry ass has to say.” I pushed him out of my way. “Oh and by the way, how’s Synovia and the baby? You know. The baby that y’all had when y’all were fucking behind my back.”

  He sucked his teeth and I saw his jaw clench. “I found out that she wasn't mine.” He stated.

  “Oh really. I guess Malcolm was happy then.”

  “It's not his either.” He said looking me directly in the eyes.

  “Well I guess that's what both of y’all get for fucking that stupid ass hoe in the first place. I'm surprised your dick ain't fall off.”

  “Man Kiara cut the bull shit. We need to talk.”

  I pointed over Jordan’s shoulder. “Talk to your girl. She's headed this way.”

  His girlfriend started going off and Jordan got a whole ear-full of it. I slightly chuckled and entered my car.

  “I knew I should have just gone to the drive-thru.” I said to myself.

  I ordered some pizza hut so that by the time I got home it would be there. But little did I know it wasn't the only thing there waiting for me. I found Gino sitting on my porch smoking a blunt; and an eviction notice taped neatly to the door.

  Chapter 5 (Kiara)

  “So.” Gino said waiting for my response.

  “So what?” I repeated. I tried walking past Gino but he put his arm up completely stopping me. I tripped and damn near fell down two steps on the porch when he forcefully shoved me. I readjusted my clothes once I caught my balance. I was not about to let him push up on me again. I just got rid of that black eye. I didn't need another one.

  “Man quit fucking acting dumb. You know I don't like that beating around the bush bull shit.” He stated while sucking his teeth.

  “I don't know what you're talking about. But I do know that you need to get off my porch. Oh my bad----I forgot. Because of you I have no porch. I don't even have a house. Seeing as how you didn't pay the rent like you said you would."

  Gino slightly chuckled. "What the fuck did you expect me to do after you pulled that stunt?"

  "What stunt Gino? You and I were fucking. When two people fuck without using condoms then it's possible for the girl to get pregnant. I never tried to trap you if that's what you're thinking. You know what; fuck you and fuck your money. I don't need you. You ain’t shit but a dog. I'm surprised you ain't get down on all fours and bark like a dog yet."

  "Who the fuck you think you talking to?" He grabbed me by my throat and pulled me closer to him. "You want to repeat that for me?" He questioned.

  "Gino stop. I can't-----breathe."

  "That's what I thought
." He threw me on the ground and then hovered over me while I tried to catch my breath. "Did you or did you not do what the fuck I told you to do?"

  I hurriedly shook my head up and down to answer his question while tears escaped my eyes. I knew I was lying but hell he didn't know that. He lifted me up by my hair and made me look him in the eyes. He leaned in to kiss me but I turned my head. He slightly chuckled. "Oh and by the way; I paid for that damn car too. I'm taking it with me."

  I didn't even protest. He was right. He did pay for it; and even if I put up a fight I would most likely end up being the one hurt from the whole situation.

  "Give me the keys." I wasn't moving fast enough so he snatched my purse and dumped out its contents on the ground until he found the keys.

  "Thanks babe." This time he grabbed my face and held it so tight that I thought he was going to break it. When he kissed me I bite his lip causing him to back hand me. I went tumbling towards the ground once again. "I always knew you were a stupid bitch." He laughed once more after wiping the blood from his bottom lip.

  He climbed in my car; or shall I say his car and threw up the deuces sign before pulling out of the driveway.

  "What am I going to do?" I whispered. I have no money because I got fired from my job. Gino was like my savior. He was helping me out with all the bills, taking me shopping, and making sure I had everything I needed. But now I have nothing. No car, house, or money. My dad past away last year from a stroke and my mom is sick. So I couldn't ask her. All of her money is going towards all of her treatments and surgeries. Synovia is out of the question. I would never ask her. Last but not least Princess. I couldn't stay with her because I'm absolutely positive that Gino wouldn't allow it. I continued to cry until a car pulled up in my driveway. It was pizza hut. I was no longer in the mood to eat. But I knew I had to for the sake of my baby.